May 20th, 2008 Add Your Comments Bookmark and Share

My work/life balance is screwed at the moment. Everything is about work, I go to bed worrying about work, I wake up and the first thing I do is turn a computer on, I feel guilty for taking the time to go to the gym. I don’t ever seem to spend any real time with my family anymore, it’s got so bad that I even went to a Ballroom Dancing competition on Sunday night (she came second by the way) just to get a bit of quality time. Things don’t get much worse than that!

The problem is that I’m always worrying about the future, what if this happens, what if that happens, where can I make up for that from etc etc It never ends. Google, Microsoft and certain governments who shall go unnamed have all conspired to make things a little bit more interesting for me but with all the best will in the world there is nothing I can do about it. What I’m forgetting is that as things stand I’m actually doing more than OK. Plenty of money in the bank, still earning more than I spend, I should be out relaxing a bit. Even in the past when things have gone pear shaped I’ve always been able to adapt and come up with something new so why spend the time worrying about it before it even happens? It seems very stupid to me!

So in the very near future I’m going to be making a few changes, for a start I’m going to be leaving the office and will be working from home again. It seems to make sense at this time, less travel, more time with the family and more of the flexibility that was part of the reason for working for myself in the first place (It feels a little like I’m working for somebody else in a 7-6 job at the moment!) I’m going to be free to look after my rapidly growing daughter during the school holidays, this will be the last chance before she turns into one of these teenager monsters. Another big change will be in how I work, from now on my computer doesn’t get switched on unless I have a clear idea in my mind what I’m going to be doing, no more hours of stumbling and just general nothingness. Checking stats for the 100th time today doesn’t count as something to do. When I’m finished the computer gets turned off, not left on “just in case”.

In general I want to work harder and be more productive but work less hours. Even if the worst comes to the very worst and the bubble pops completely, I’ll just have to get a normal job. But in the mean time I’m going to try and enjoy working for myself as much as possible again.

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